Hopeless(Video)

I Hold Two Items

I hold two items

Drenched in blood

That I should carry to my grave

One has a barrel

The other a silver blade

On them both an engraving is written

Till death do us part

And as I kill with one or the other

I aim for the heart.

If I choose my pistol

A sign of mercy

Misery to end quick

Means I have no feelings

A death ill soon forget

But a shot from my barrel

Sometimes a sign of forgiveness

For the death is short and sweet

Not as painful or endless

Now shall I pull out my dagger

A sign of real emotion

Cause only those so close

End with such devotion

That I would take my time

To carve out their heart

That I would care so much

To make them suffer before we part

My dagger is a sign of love

In which the thorns have pierced

So choosing my dagger is an honor

An honor you should fear

One pistol

One dagger

Each in a hand

One for those that need it

The other for a lover and friend

Misery, I’m bound to

Like the blood on my blade

So whether its pistol or dagger

I’m always to blame

In my hands

I hold two Items

A Pistol

A Dagger

An endless reminder

That the way you are killed has more meaning

Than just a death

With no reasoning

Pistols and Daggers

Death to us all

With one shot, cut

Slit of the throat

I end your life

On that final note



My Deepest Apologies

Please don’t be so cruel

Who I blame is not you

For every little thing I’ve done

I’ve wasted my time

Precious moments and memories

That now you fill

It leaves such an empty place.

I do want to apologize

Wasn’t it an apology you wanted?

Here I go with the single phrase

I’m sorry

Not for what you think

Forgive me for yelling

For calling you such cruel names

I’m sorry for every time I got to you

That wasn’t my true intent

Sorry for every scar I left

And the bruises I may of caused

I apologize for making you stay

For at least this long

Forgive me for making you love me

And loving you back

I’m sorry I depressed you

At least back than

Now I’ll change it up

From sweet, to not

Once again, forgive me

For ever meeting you

Every time I tried to protect you

Forgive me for that too

I’m sorry for trying to make you happy

Or caring what’s wrong

Sorry for thinking I mattered

When you planned to leave me all along

I apologize for telling you everything

And thinking I could depend on you

Forgive me for always helping

When I thought you needed me to

Sorry I tried so hard

To take you everywhere

Thought you’d rather be elsewhere

Than your home

Sorry I wouldn’t abandon you quite like you did me

No matter how much you pissed me off

I’d be there until the end

I apologize for ever once thinking you loved me

Cause if you can leave, I mean nothing

Everything is there

All the Misery I’ve caused

All the things I shouldn’t regret

But you abandoned me

And I write this even than

Forgive me for this poem

Cause it’s just really sad

That the only way I can explain this

Is through words here and there

You never try to fix anything

And you’ll never get the chance

When I said you were spineless

Maybe you were just a dick

I’m sorry for calling you spineless also

And probably for that last comment too

As well as any to come

But I shall continue

These reasons why I don’t blame you

Cause it is my fault

For mistaken you as a friend

Believing I could trust you

That you’d be there until the end

I forgot to apologize for the one thing that started this

Sorry for hanging up

But you’d never yelled at me before

Way to make me feel more stressed

Then I already was

The meaning of all this

Is because you see no fault

Only in us do you see something wrong

For once I can say I shall not forget

And though we could be friends again

We won’t return to how we were

For my last words

I’ll never forgive you

For leaving me

Yelling and then blaming

I would have apologized had I made it

But you took it way to far

You knew how I was and you just quit

So don’t just blame me

It’s an all-around thing

The only part you missed

Is we didn’t abandon you

I can’t believe you’d leave

I’ll never forgive you

This feeling of betrayal

The realization you’d never truly be there

Cause all it took was a click of a button

For you to abandon me like that

I’m sorry I ever thought you better

I guess thats the end of that



With my Deepest Apologies,

A.R.B.

This I wish...

I wish to be engulfed in darkness
For darkness holds me close
I wish to sink to the bottom of the sea
Because the sea would not be so cold
I wish to cut my heart out
It’s easier than such misery
And I wish to close my eyes
To never awake, you see

Everything is but a wish
But wishes are hopeless causes
For darkness never holds me close
And I float instead of drowned
My heart stops the knife from my chest
And my eyes have too much will to open
So you see a wish is but a dream
So Misery you can cope with

Instead of wish I shall do
Do what isn’t so hopeless
I’ll get a knife and slit your throat
To kill two birds with one stone
Not only has darkness engulfed you
But your eyes have closed too
After that Ill cut out your heart
And throw you to the sea
I’ll put anchors to your feet
So you can sink
There goes your Misery
So you see, not just a dream
I’ve done what wishes couldn’t
And ended your life when you wouldn’t