Friday, April 27, 2012
*Consider this an elegy*
*Consider this an elegy*
Mournful sense of dread
No one’s truly dead
But still we mourn
With an elegiac look, she stepped
Closer to the edge of nowhere.
I watched her intensely,
As she whispered words of Misery.
How long had she faked it, a
smile,
And all the while, I had watched
her,
Yet, it never passed, a single
concern,
That she was truly lonely.
Had I never took in to
consideration,
Her slowly breaking heart;
Let her hide behind laughter,
And sweet cheerful remarks.
Could I not of took the time
To just ask her what’s wrong,
But no, I always remained,
Silently strong.
Out of pride, was it,
The reason I don’t move.
Because some hidden feeling of
lose,
I stray away from you.
When all is over
And the days run cold,
My pride will be the only thing
Left to know.
What good is pride
Without reason?
Should I have got up
And plead than?
It was she,
That told me goodbye,
But perhaps it was I,
That brought forth that lie.
Her body’s cold
As the chilled wind hits.
Another step closer
And it all could end.
The desire to reach out chokes me,
But still I remain like a rock.
Though, I deserve it,
Why do I miss you so much?
Should I be all alone
And still it’s so cold.
Turning, just slightly,
I see watered eyes;
They break me to pieces
To the point I’ll die,
Yet, I remain,
Stubborn as ever,
And she walks off the edge
Against my endeavors.
After all that fighting
Not to give in,
I fall to my knees
And cry for nothing.
It’s all over
And I hurt terribly
Because I had to have pride,
Indefinitely?
Could I just of
Let it all go,
My selfish thoughts,
Let my hatred fold?
All I hated
Was my eternal love,
And, still, it
Wasn’t enough.
Loving her still,
Yet, she’s gone
And I was wrong,
All along.
With a look so solemn,
She disappeared,
And with her death
Awoke all my FEARS.
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Thursday, April 19, 2012
Hopeless: Chapter 16
Am I to believe you actually care?
You claim to love me so, yet, I am all alone. Where are you when I need you
most? Thought I was worth more but apparently I’m just another rose wilting in
the sun, untouched by any remote form of love. Perhaps it means nothing; love
that is, a lie, an amazing lie that can fool even the greatest player by its
trickery and games. Maybe it takes a
liar to win the game of love. You know, I think I’ll become a liar, and pretend
like I never loved you, then, maybe then, I’ll understand.
Endless
emotions rushed over Bella’s body as she felt the heart ache of betrayal, like
a bitter herb, on her tongue. Even though what she felt was caused by the man
that looked at her with fear in his eyes and a begging forgiveness, she only blamed
herself for the gun aimed at her head.
Right at this moment Brook didn’t even touch the thoughts that crept to
escape her lips, it was just Sam, the gun, and all the reasons this was her
fault.
“Bells,” Sam spoke
with that heartbroken, sweet voice she had always known but it just made Bella
want to fall to her knees in tears.
Why does he fool her
with that voice, making her want to believe that he was still her love struck
puppy always there to protect her.
“Shall we shoot her?”
The moment was ended
by a couple of lowly demons with the lust of her body and blood in their eyes.
They laughed cheerfully and she knew even with a rejection they would still
kill her and most likely rape what warmth that would be left in her body.
“Once in the throat, twice in the head,”
“A bloody scene, to leave her dead!”
In chorus, they sung such a twisted a ghastly song that
involved her death as well as their plans after she died. It made Bella cringe
and her knees buckle with fear. How she just wanted to get out of here, away
from the odorous tunnels and the trembling thoughts of her body being mutilated
and violated. To the cocking of guns,
Bella closed her eyes sending silent whispers to God so her soul would not be
trapped alongside her body.
“Do it and you’ll be ash!” Her eyes popped open to see Sam
growling at the two cowardly demons that now were backed in to a corner.
Even in fear, they still giggled and scowled at Sam but Sam
had the upper hand with two guns aimed for their heads.
“We never meant to upset you”
“Had no clue you were whipped!”
“Guess you’re just as low,”
“For letting a witch have your soul!”
The end of the line as the led went through their heads, but
instead of a violent scarlet, they fell in a pile of ash and vanished. Sam
trembled with anger but soon it was replaced with fear. He knew what laid ahead
for the deed he had just done.
“Annoying Creatures,”
Finally, Bella was able to drop to her knees in a burst of
tears and cries of terror. Sobbing uncontrollably, Bella remained in shock from
the horrible things she had gone through in the last five minutes. Sam confused
and just as much in shock, ran to her side in an attempt to comfort her.
“I’m Sorry Bells,”
Bella looked up, at the sweet blue eyes she had once thought
she knew, and sniffled.
“You have to leave,”
Sam pushed her up in a rush to save her from what was soon
to be his doom. He knew Austin would find out and wouldn’t even stifle a
Goodbye as he killed Bella. She looked at him one last time as she realized the
reason she was here. She couldn’t leave, not after all that. Brook still wasn’t
home safely and Bella wasn’t about to leave her now.
“I can’t leave,”
With that, Bella darted for the opposite direction, leaving
Sam in a panic as he whispered his last proclamation of love and farewell. When
Bella returned, Sam would be gone and hopefully she would return.
“Don’t
touch me!” Brook snarled as she slapped Austin’s hand away. She was getting to
the point where she figured it was better to fight back than just play the weak
damsel. Austin grabbed her wrist as she went to slap him again.
“Someone’s getting
her spirit back,” He gave a cruel smile, not taking her seriously. Sike kicked
his leg in an attempt to get him to let her go but it only made things worse.
Looking at those black eyes and that dark hair only filled Austin with rage and
annoyance. “Well aren’t we getting a
little brave, you mutt!” Kicking Sike off his leg, He turned back to an even feistier
Brook.
“I’m Braver than you!” Lifting himself off the ground, Sike
glared at Austin with strong willed eyes. Austin growled, raising his hand to
knock the defense less child against the wall. POP!
“Mommy?” Brook laid on the floor, pushing her head and upper
body up to at least look at the one she truly despised. She wiped the blood from the corner of her
mouth as Sike tried to go to her but she pushed him back. Her lip had a deep gash
in it from taking the impact and her eyes penetrated his.
“If you ever lay one hand on him I will personally plan your
funeral,” Her voice was low for she was still weak but she managed to say it
with enough venom to kill five men.
Austin’s mood turned as he enjoyed the sound of that challenge.
“Perhaps another time my dearest,” He offered his hand to
help her up but she turned her head in rejection. “Suit yourself,” With that,
he left the room and she embraced a teary eyed Sike.
“Shhh, its okay Sikey. Look, Mommy can handle anything,” He
gripped on tighter to her as she soothed him. Brook really would do anything for this small
image of West. She knew that with Austin so easy to harm the child, she had to
get him out of here.
It was
against every lie he had told himself, yet, there he was standing in front of
the one place he knew he’d have to return to sooner or later, but he was hoping
for later. “I said I wouldn’t do this to myself, but who am I kidding. Even
that cat called me out on my bullshit,” West gathered all his pride and tossed
it away because it wasn’t worth anything without her next to him.
The entrance was more run down than before, because at the
time he first came through it twelve years ago it had been a working underworld
club. Why the hell did they even have underworld clubs? Guess it was so Demons
could trap innocent or more along the lines of tainted souls. “Stop delaying
West,” With that, he entered being lead through the maze by poor lighting from the
torches. He guided himself against the
dripping cold stones. “Poor plumbing. Damn this place has literally gone to
hell. Humans take so much better care of stuff,” Jokes aside, he continued down
to a larger section where he heard a sweet honey silken voice that made his
stomach turn.
“What did we expect boys. A mutt is just a useless tool that
breaks so easily,” It was Austin and amazingly he hadn’t scented an enraged
West. He apparently was too focused on something else but what? Austin raised a
hand that no longer looked human. It was his true form of a grey beast like
creature with long dirty claws, but West had no right to be even the slightest
bit shocked for his form was just as beastly and devilish. What did you expect
from some of the most powerful devils hell has ever known? Austin’s hand, I mean paw, slashed across what
sounded like flesh and bone making a terrible crunching sound. Blood and bits
of white pieces flew into the air. “We can’t have weakness,” One of the goblin
looking demons handed Austin a towel in which he wiped his now human hand clean
of the remaining blood. “Clean this up, you disgusting low class demon,” He
through the towel back at the lower demon who bowed in turn and looked at a
leaving Austin with pure admiration.
Once Austin had vanished, West stepped out from the shadows
to see the bloody remains of the guy he knew as Sam. He had known about his
little secret but never knew he would fall so close to this side of things.
West expressed no pity for Sam but felt like he deserved to be avenged since it
was Austin that killed him after all and he was all up for more reason to
destroy that so called pretty boy!
“Well hello there boys, “They all turned to see West
cracking his knuckles as he gave a huge grin, “Miss me?
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To the one that truly deserves it
For once I’d like to
write to you
The one person that
is always there.
Never do you cause me
such utter sadness
Yet, I write barely
anything about you.
Well this is for you
my sweet lover
This is for everything
you have ever done for me.
I am truly in debt to
the kindness and patience you have shown
All those small minor
moments that meant the world.
I know I’m a little
hard to deal with, forgive me for that
But still you manage
to look at me with a smile.
You are truly a
Prince, my prince
Perfection that I
never dreamed of having.
Such an imperfect
girl that never dreamed of Princes
I wasn’t a Cinderella
type child
And yet, here you are.
With your blue green
eyes and soft strong hands
With your still blonde
to me hair and lovely smile
Every inch of you I
adore.
From your
stubbornness to show your teeth
To your cute laughing
There is nothing I don’t
love even what I hate.
You’re the essence of
me
My complete opposite
As well as my exact copy.
With you I feel safe
and secure
I know we can make it
far
And that you will
always be there.
Even when I run to
far ahead
Even if I climb the
highest stairs
You will remain
beside this sorry excuse for a girl
And you deserve this,
which I’m writing.
I’m sorry I couldn’t write
it sooner
But it is so hard to
express how grateful I am
For you, for us, for
every moment.
I couldn’t live without
knowing you now
And I hope I’ll never
have to forget you.
I trust you fully and
would gladly give you my all.
There is so much that
I wish for you to know
Like how I find your
idolistic love for Bruno Mars adorable
Or how I am actually
happy that you’re so darn sickly sweet.
So much that I could
tell you
But I suck at keeping
it short and sweet.
I always beat around
the bush
Always try to make
everything into a riddle
But you have learned
me well
And I just hope you
always remember how I feel.
If I shall never
write another poem for you
Remember it isn’t because
you are meaningless
Or that I have
nothing to say to you
It is simply because
you are too perfect to describe
My love is too
difficult to express
Even for such a
skilled writer as myself
So simply, what I
want to tell you is this
I love you
More than the world
More than myself
More than even my
cats
Your everything to me
Patient when Im impatient
Calm when Im angry
Sweet when Im cruel
Loving when Im mean
And there when it
counts
That’s why Im with
you
Because I know no matter what terrible things I do
You will fight to
keep me
Thank you for knowing
me so well
I love you Mon amour
Forever and always
Always and forever
Until the end of time
And then some
Until death do us
part
And an eternity thereafter.
This is for the only
person that deserves my sadness
My one TRUEST love
Love your little
Chaton,
ARB/SA
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Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Something I wanted to share....
I read a manga just recently with a poem I can't quite forget. I love
it very much and wish to share it and probably write something with the
same theme. I wish I knew the author for it is beautiful. I'll post it.
If it should happen...
that we never meet again, I'd rather that we'd never met.
That way neither of us would have to hate each other.
that we never meet again, I'd rather that we'd never met.
That way neither of us would have to hate each other.
So
beautiful and straight forward, or at least to me. I adore it. My new
favorite poem by an unknown writer I just can't seem to find :( Good day
than Blogger, My form of a diary I guess
Love your terrible excuse for a girl,
S.A.
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Tuesday, April 3, 2012
As long as you loved me
Look into my eyes as I tell you I love you
Then, tell me it’s a lie
Say you don’t believe me as I hold you high
Grace me with your lips just one last time
Or perhaps, just tell me you believe it wasn’t a lie
Let me hold your hand as I pledge my life
But don’t tell me it’s useless
Just let me help you in all of this
Hand me your hand so I can lay upon them a kiss
Or perhaps, just let me show you I’m not useless
Shall I hold you in my arms as I give you protection
As you tell me there is no way
Over and over reject me even as I keep you safe
A hug instead to hold you in place
Or perhaps, just let me give you a way
Can I touch
your lips with mine out of passion
While
you convince yourself there’s nothing
You
continue not to reject me but say not a thing
You
could give a kiss goodbye that ends with a bang
Or
perhaps, touch me like it means something
All I want is
you to trust in all I say
Simple as that
but yet there is no way
Can’t I just
have you for once as mine
Or is it just a
wish that ends in time
All I’m saying
is, I’d be happy with none of this
As long as you
loved me it be bliss
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The Acidic Assassin, a wolverine & the x-men fanfic - FanFiction.Net
The Acidic Assassin, a wolverine & the x-men fanfic - FanFiction.Net
This is a fanfiction I made with X-men
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